burden

to the north.
i want to go.
escape.
from what?
reality. duty. friends. family. everything.
don't bother me.

what if i disappeared?
what if i died?
it'll make them cry.
sin. crime. guilt.
don't .
i can't die.
i can't go anywhere.
i'm captured.
let me go let me go let me go
somebody kill me.
please.
anybody.
wanna escape.

i can't go.
i must live.
the last thing i want.
life.
my life.
i don't want it.
i want to throw it away from the rooftop.

i want snow.
i want to die in white.
not black.
not red.
white.
give me white.
make me smile.
i need white.
to light up my mind.

i can't see anything.
i'm in the dark.
i'm in the black.
spitting out crimson red.
everyday.
sin that should be hidden.
my burden.
i want to throw it away.
burden.