more

more more more
more more more
I WANT MORE

can't stop eating

though I'm full
full of tasteless food
full of regret
full of self-hatred

all I can do is
vomit red as usuall

...

あまりにも哀れで、居た堪れないので、
いっそのこと此の手で殺してあげようかと思うのです。

頭が酸欠になっていくあの感覚に、
ついつい身を委ねてしまおうかと思うのです。

you≒me≠ideal

why do you always insist me to be exactly what YOU want me to be?

should I? maybe.

but all you say is "don't you think you should be like this and that?"
not "do this and that".

you always tell me what YOU want
and always get frustrated because I'm not like YOUR ideal .
far away from YOUR ideal.

you just can't accept what I am
and complain about what I do.

you're like a child who can't get what she wants.